Penny May 2009
I was asked recently to write an article for www.sizenet .com, the plus size network magazine. The topic is my experience as a BBW Escort. Its not yet been published but I thought you my readers might like a sneaky peek. So here it is:
Let me introduce myself, I’m Penny 40 something BBW Escort living in the South of England and I have been Escorting as an Independent lady for the past 4 years. Fat birds Escorting? Too damn right. I’m going to tell you a little about my size and life before Escorting and the things I’ve found out about myself since starting to work in the Industry.
I was a chubby baby, but had what you would call ‘normal’ weight from then until my early 20’s. As a teenager I always thought I was too fat, but I wasn’t . My body developed early and I felt quite self conscious at my boobs, though the boys loved to look! I married at 19, divorced at 23, no children. I was unhappy in my marriage and food was a major thing in my married life for both myself and my husband. He was of a large build. I was size 12 when he met me and size 16 when we divorced. After that I used my weight as protection, thinking no man would want me, and that was ok as it meant that I wouldn’t be hurt again in a relationship. I wore my weight as a shield.
My family encouraged me to loose weight, but I found it hard, always blaming my sweet tooth. But in truth I was comfortable hiding behind it. Yes there were plenty of times I wanted to be slimmer, just so that I could wear nice clothes and not shapeless sacks as I did then. I had a couple of relationships, but nothing that lasted. I didn’t have my self confidence in my personal life.
Then in 2004 my world turned upside down. My lovely mum died of Ovarian Cancer after a short time being ill. She was my Dads main carer, he had Non Hodgekinsons Lymphoma, he was in remission at that time. I had to quickly step into my mums shoes and care for Dad, run his house, pay the bills, take him to medical appointments and sort out his vast medication, as well as being a companion to him. I was working in the Finance Industry at the time as a Manager, running a team of 10. I coped for a whole year, juggling looking after my dad, working and trying to have a life of my own, though not very much of one.
I had to make a decision as Dad was needing more care. I had worked previously to my Mum dying in a Parlour, very part time just to pay off some debts. But didn’t like it as I had no choice over who I saw. I kept in touch with some of my escort friends, and they suggested I try working as an Independent Escort. I had nothing to loose, if it didn’t work out I could always go and stack shelves.
When I phoned the Parlour before my Mum died, I really thought that they wouldn’t want a lady like me, more mature and curvy. But I was assured there would be work for me, and there was. Though working in this setting meant that with most of the clients had an itch to scratch and didn’t mind who with. Being Independent meant that I could work when and when I wanted/needed to, do all my own advertising, and vet the guys and see who I wanted to see. I was able to work part time for full time money, and care for my Dad. Sadly he died in 2007.
It’s a strange thing to say but I really feel I’ve found my vocation in life. Its not just about the sex, I like to create the right atmosphere, candles, soft music, somewhere discreet to relax and play in. Most of my clients are older, some retired, some just wanting some one to hold them, and to talk to. Some have erectile problems, and we have fun getting things working. I’ve been told that I’m the Escort equivalent of Heinkin! A lot of pillow talk happens as guys feel safe with me, and unofficial counselling at times as well as sex therapy. I’m a naturally caring person, so this comes easy to me.
I can honestly say I’ve had no man walk out on me because of my curves or the size that I am. I was a size 20 when I started Escorting, and then went up to 22, and now currently I’m a size 18. Dunno how I’ve lost weight though, maybe its all the bedroom gymnastics lol.
Escorting has opened my eyes to how men like women with curves, they love our natural beauty, our confidence in our own skins, they find it really sexy. I’m not saying slimmer women are’nt sexy, they certainly are. I have blossomed as a person and in my own body since doing this job. I revel in the fact that men love my body, every little crease and dimple, all my plump bits. I now wear sexy clothing, something that shows me off at my best. I no longer hide inside my fat, I’m proud to show it off and let men adore me.
Would I have had this change happen if I hadn’t been Escorting? Not sure. Maybe if I had found a good man to give me that confidence. But who knows. All I can say is that I’m happy in the way I am, and I love the attention I get from clients. I’m fairly fit, I try and walk and swim as much as possible, I don’t have health problems, and as long as that continues I’m staying just the way I am,
Escorting is not the easy option for any woman or man, believe me. You have to be aware of the safety issues, you have to run yourself as a business and do lots of PR. There’s a great site called www.saafe.com that has Escorting advice and a forum for discussions.
About two years ago I set up a Buddy System, to help ladies new to the business. I had lots of help when I started out, and without that I might not have continued. www.escortbuddys.com This System marries up new ladies with experienced Escorts, just to help them be safe as they are starting out, I’m in the process of sorting out a website for it, but if any lady has any questions then you can contact me on escortbuddys@hotmail.co.uk
Penny x x x
I really enjoyed writing that and it reminded me how much I actually do enjoy writing. Not done it for awhile, but now feel enthused to do some more, so watch this space. Please note that this was written before I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes.
Hugs
Penny x x x
